Though, I never became an "alcoholic," I have always had a great deal of ambivalence when it came to alcohol. I knew that my relationship with it was unhealthy and that my motives for drinking were not coming from a place of moderation or wisdom.
My drinking was often fueled by overwhelming emotions, a desire to "lose control," or to just forget or numb out completely. Though I may have been searching for an escape from an emotional storm, drinking often just caused me to experience my emotions to an even greater degree and increase the likelihood that I would give into my many impulsive urges.
In today's video post, I discuss, in great detail, my relationship towards alcohol throughout my life, how it has effected my symptoms of borderline personality disorder, and why I have decided to "get on the wagon" and quit drinking altogether.
Many people with BPD experience impulsivity with alcohol and other mood altering substances. What skills help you most when the urge to self-medicate hits?
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